I’ve been binge watching Grey’s Anatomy to distract myself from grief. Most of you know my husband died recently. And before I get advice about sitting with the pain, trust me I have been. I don’t only binge on old seasons of Greys, I have also been walking to get out of the house and to allow nature to heal the pain. Walking really does help. And today I went back to work after a long absence. I would like to write something eloquent and wise but I just don’t have it in me of late. Any creativity seems to have been frozen with the death of the man I loved. I’d like to write something positive and inspirational. I don’t have that in me either at the moment. So, I am uploading a photo I captured yesterday. Please forgive my lack of writing skill as I cope with grief; cope with this new reality, this new life without him.

Sometimes when my spirit feels as frozen as the fields in winter it helps to get out in nature and just breathe.

44 thoughts on “Coping with grief, coping with life

  1. Oh, Carol. I am so sorry. I havenโ€™t been keeping up with my own writing or other peopleโ€™s blogs and Iโ€™m just jumping back in to find this out. I know there is nothing I can say that will help but please know that I am sending you good energy and many prayers for us much peace and love as you can feel right now. Just continue to be gentle with yourself.

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    1. I am hoping this winter won’t be too brutally cold. Randy bought me a set of snow shoes for Christmas a couple of years ago. I plan to use them on the trails near here. There will be plenty of photos. ๐Ÿ™‚

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  2. I can’t speak to the level of pain and grief from losing a lifelong partner, but grief and grieving is personal process for each individual. But, it is a process that takes time. Each person has to work through that process THEIR WAY and the time it takes will likely be different for everyone. One day soon you’re well or bucket will be full enough to write something eloquent and wise

    And maybe what you just wrote simply raw, eloquent and wise. I think it is.

    Blessings Carol.

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      1. I am so glad to hear it. I have a second book out to publishers and I am waiting for a reply. Please keep your fingers crossed it will be well received.

        Glad you’re managing. Take good care of you!!!!

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  3. Dear Carol, An AOC long time friend. May the Lord uplift you each day and bring you closer into his sacred intimacy. Big loving hugs to you! ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ””๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ•Š ๐Ÿ””๐Ÿ’

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  4. So sorry to hear about your hubby. Like many others my blogging, and following has been pretty sporadic for a while.

    Weโ€™ve talked in the past about health situations and when they touch those closest to us that can be earth shattering. Just last weekend Peggy was in hospital for a few days and the reality of living without her struck home in scary ways. Fortunately sheโ€™ll be ok and we have plenty of follow up appointments to help her get there but processes grind on and on as Iโ€™m sure you have gone through.

    Prayers for healing and consolation coming your way.

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    1. Thank you, Peter. I hope Peg makes a full and speedy recovery. Anticipated grief can be so terrifying. I think I was grieving Randy’s death long before it actually came. He was sick so so very long and the past year in particularly. Please keep my little family in your prayers as my daughter-in-law is also very ill. she was diagnosed with brain cancer a year and a half ago.

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