“How are you?”
“I’m okay.”
“Just okay?”
“Yup, just okay, but I’m here.”
I participate in this scenario quite often. My husband is not well and I am his main caregiver. I don’t think most people want an honest answer to the question of how I am, not really. Most days I am okay – just okay. There are some when I am very happy, and of course others when I definitely am not happy. But for the most part I am okay. I don’t think people really want to know about my daily struggles or the things that I find frustrating. It’s not easy caring for a sick partner. It just isn’t. I congratulate myself on a daily basis for being ‘just okay’.
I have written about the ups and downs of health issues pertaining to diabetes more than a few times here. My husband jokes he has ‘frequent flyer miles’ at the hospital. This weekend he ended up there once again. I don’t know who dropped the ball. It may have been the doctor’s office when they called in a renewal on his medications. Or, it may be that the pharmacist neglected to include one of his meds in his blister pack. He takes a lot of medications, and it’s easy to miss it if one isn’t there. Plus, his meds are often changed for one reason or another. At any rate he’d been without one of them for about a week – a medication he really needs – hence the most recent hospital stay. It’s scary sometimes. And it’s also daunting, this responsibility to be on top of everything medical.
I am doing my best to take care of myself as well as him through it all. I try to keep it positive and I pray a lot. But much of the time I am exhausted, physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. Yet, I am okay. I know powers greater than mine carry me through it all. So, yes, I am “just” okay and I’m alright with that.
Have a great week, Carol!
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Thanks Winnie, and you as well
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You’re welcome and thank you, Carol.
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Sending warm healing thoughts your way. Hope that your husband gets better and that you are able to manage to look after yourself as well as him.
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thanks Sadje, I am doing my best
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Stay strong.
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I will do my very best, thanks
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You’re welcome.
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Sending warm thoughts full of necessary energy!! ((Hugs))
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Thanks so much Ruth
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So sorry to hear sis. Hopefully they get it straightened around sooner rather than later. You have to take care of you as well & take some you time even if you have to steal it. You’ve been through a lot over the past few years especially & I know you’re ok but your not ok because I know what that’s like lol. Just take good care of you because you’re the only sister like you I’ve got. Give Randy a hug from all of us & hers’s a HUGE I mean HUGE Hug for you. Love You sis
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Thanks so much my brother – I am doing my best to stay healthy and strong. I love you too.
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Oh, Carol! My heart goes out to you and to your husband as you struggle with this. Eight years ago I was in a caregiver situation with my husband; he had fallen on the ice. Long story, short story, he ended up having to have a metal plate put into his ankle (or he’d never walk again) and multiple screws up the damaged leg. I was thrown into a caregiver situation; it was exhausting. My situation only lasted a few weeks. It wasn’t life threatening. I can’t even begin to imagine what this is like for you. I really hope that you get some “me” time to take care of you. You are in my prayers and thoughts.
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Thanks so much – I appreciate your kind words. I do have the support of my grown children, so that helps. Unfortunately they do not live with us so….. at any rate it could be so much worse.
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This really resonated with me. Thank you for being so honest and true.
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I admire your honest posts as well. Life can be difficult – but it can also be very, very good.
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